My Story Continued

So I promised to return soon to finish up week 1 of the Your Living Canvas Workshop journaling exercises with you.  Christy Tomlinson and Art McCracken have really helped all of us in the workshop dig deep into our past experiences to look at the events and people that make us who we are today.  Here are two more of my entries into my art journal from week one.  Let me know what you think. Check out my labels on the right, "art journal" and Living Canvas Workshop" to see previous entries into my journal.

 3.  Write down three accomplishments, moments of joy, or clarity that have happened in your life.  Well, I haven't written a best seller, won a major award, discovered or invented anything but I am proud of what I have achieved at this point in my life.  The main ones I chose to focus on with this entry were becoming a Christian, becoming a mother and getting my college degree.

 Getting my college degree is big for me because I was the first in my family to do so.  I've had cousins and such and my dad started college but entered the air force and never finished.  He is a brilliant man who followed his love and passion and worked in the air craft industry for over 40 years.  I have to admit though, my purpose in leaving home and going to college was more of an escape than a plan.  I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I just didn't want to stay where I had made some major poor decisions and felt like I really didn't belong.  It's funny how God works~  I ended up at a Christian university on a volleyball scholarship which had a day-to-day routine much like high school, I got up, out of bed and to class and practice because if I didn't do those things, I didn't get to play in the game.  Then someone comes along and tells me I have to choose a major to study?  I had no idea what my talents were off the court but God led me into teaching and after many years, I realized that is the gift He gave me.

These fun flowers were made from modeling paste, stencils and wax paper.  I have been using them a lot, it's very cool to make your own embellishments. 

I struggle with doubt sometimes when I think about when I became a Christian.  Mainly because I was young and I have no recollection of the actual event.  How can that be!  Of course I have chosen to rededicate my life to Christ and I am a follower, believer and a servant but I am puzzled at why I can't remember what should have been one of the most important days of my life. :(  The good thing is, once forgiven, always forgiven.  I pray daily about my relationship with God, it brings me closer with each prayer to knowing what God's will is for my life.  I've learned one thing though, living OUT of God's will is no place to be!

 I looked up the definition of accomplished and I think there is a big difference in "completed; done" and being "highly skilled" in something.  I think it is so important to choose a field in which you have a passion and a gift.  It sure makes getting up and going to work each day a whole lot more fun!
I love that becoming a mother doesn't take any studying, per say.  God gives us that innate ability to love what He gives us.  My husband and I were married 8 years before we had a baby.  People had all but given up on us and we were in a bit of a routine so when our beautiful Kyrah came along, well, it kind of "upset our apple cart!"  We felt clueless and stayed exhausted but 15 years later, all the hard work has paid off.  She is a delightful and shameless child of God and her little sister Vanalice is as unique as they come and keeps our family laughing.  God is good!

 4.  Write down three relationships that have shifted your life in some way (Good or bad).  Well, I chose to stay with the good.  I used the "three experiences" prompt to address issues with a bad relationship and so now I am over it and ready to focus on the positive.  Of course the largest butterfly represents my relationship with my Heavenly Father.  He will always be there no matter what. I am working to become what He wants me to be.  I am a work in progress :)

 These butterflies are my daughters and my best friend Cindy.  Cindy has come along at a time in my life, about 5-6 years ago, when I felt like I didn't have much purpose in life.  It took a while for us to grow as close as we are but she reminds me on a regular basis how important friendship can be.  Growing up I could never nurture friendships enough to have more than one friend where ever I was at the time.  In Plainveiw in was Sharla, in Shallowater it was Denise, in Dalhart it was Stacy and in Pearland it was Shannon.  I can't say I had a bestie in college, my bridesmaids were great teammates but we didn't do much together beyond that and I don't see any of the people listed before aside from one or two that I have reconnected with on Facebook.  But the truth is, God put Cindy in my life at a time when I needed another woman to relate to and to spend time with that could help me see who I was again outside of being a wife and mother then helped me to understand the importance of all of the things we do fitting together to make us who we are and who God wants us to be.  We can be a wife, mother, artist, teacher, friend, daughter, etc.  But balance is tough, and we will get to that later in the workshop.

 This is Dixon's butterfly, my husband.  The man God chose, just for me.  When I met Dixon I was dating my high school sweetheart in a long distance relationship that had been on again and off again for years.  After meeting Dixon I broke up with this guy and he told me, "well, that's about your track record, a year on and a year off."  He wished me good riddance and never looked back.  He was married four months later and I had never even heard of this girl.  Oh well, God has another plan for me.  At the time I was living with some real party girls and chose to "partake" in the partying all too often for my own good and when Dixon came along, that desire to party soon faded and all I wanted to do was be with him.  He has shown kindness and understanding and tolerance that is beyond anyone I have ever met aside from my awesome parents.  Dixon got me out of that house with those roommates at the perfect time.  There is a song that says "God gave me you" and I truly believe that about him.  Now, 23 years later, we have yet to have a fight and we love each other more than ever.  And I was worried I wouldn't make it a year :)

 I know one thing for sure, the people on these pages love me with the love that only God can instill in a person.  We love Him because He first loved us.

Thanks for stopping by and reading my ramblings.  I don't have a prize for comments and I am not trying to sell you anything.  I simply enjoy the fellowship that this class and blogging about it brings.  I do enjoy your comments, they brighten my day and help me to feel I am making a small difference or maybe just touching someone a bit when I share.
Blessings,
Jana

Week One Done!!

Well, it only took me a month to finish week one of the Your Living Canvas Workshop!  Sheesh, I don't know what I was thinking starting something a week before school let out but I sure am glad I did!!!  This has really been a great time of reflection, introspection and fellowship with all the wonderful ladies participating in the workshop.  If you are interested in the workshop just check it out HERE, you will be glad you did, Christy Tonlinson and Art McCracken (fun name!) are awesome!
So a quick update on some of the accomplishments of week one in case you would like to journal along.  If you missed any of my previous posts and would like to catch up just click on "Living Canvas Workshop" or Art Journal" in the labels on the right sidebar.
There were four writing prompts, I will show you two tonight and be back with the other two soon. The theme for the week is butterflies, the symbol of change.

 1. Write down three trials, heartaches, or mistakes you have made in your life.  Well, I felt like the caterpillar was the one that had to experience the trials and heartaches in order to change into the butterfly so I created a caterpillar.  I chose words from my journaling to emphasize because my journaling itself was WAY too personal.  I guess I was still dealing with the weight of some of my mistakes so I wrote them down (for the first time ever) and then painted right over them!  I have to tell you it felt good to "get them out" even though no one can see them, God and I, know they are there and I know I have been forgiven as only He can forgive.

 2. Write down three experiences in your life that have brought change (good or bad).   After some rough experiences with a co-worker several years ago some one told me "Kindness is not weakness and rudeness is not strength," and that has really stuck with me especially when dealing with hard topics and confrontation (which I avoid like the plague!)  Some people are just rude by nature as a way of posturing their "so called" strength over you.  To me that is a true sign of weakness and self-doubt.  Hard lesson to learn though.  My journaling on these pages are behind the doors.  You know the saying, "when one door opens another closes," I thought it appropriate since one of the situations I wrote about was the end of a long time, stressful friendship.  It still haunts me a bit and I am working on forgiving myself for the situation.

 I made these fun butterflies with modeling paste and stencils on wax paper.  FUN!

There were two more journaling prompts for week one that I will share with you once I photograph my pages.  This has been a good thing, looking at different aspects of my life.  One reason it took me so long to finish week one was due to a revival at my church.  It was a truly amazing experience watching God work in my life and the lives of my family and friends.  Probably the most important thing I learned from the revival for me was that God truly provides for us when we need Him to most.  The preacher said, "Where God guides, He provides, where He leads, He feeds."  I believe it all!
Blessings,
Jana

Let the Journaling Begin

Today I wanted to share with you the first few pages of my art journal.  Not so you could read the inner most workings of my heart (the pages aren't big enough for that!) but so you could see the end product and maybe be inspired to start your own art journal.  Frankly, I have no idea what I am doing as I begin each page, I just let my heart and God lead me.
I showed you the background of this one in my last post but I thought I would share with you what it looked like and the format I think I am adopting as I begin this journey.  Christy Tomlinson has been giving us journaling prompts to prepare us for the workshop before it begins. (This is the Living Canvas Workshop)  I thought I would share them with you as we go so you could think about who you are and where you are going in life.

I have decided that with each week's prompt, I will journal on the right and then create a mixed media piece on the left in response to the journal entry.  Here is week 1 prompt:

• Write down one moment of clarity or accomplishment that you are proud of that you remember.
• Write down one trial or heartache that shapes you in some way.
• How did this change your day to day way of doing things?
• How did it affect you?
• From these experiences, did you find motivation or a purpose to do better or be better?

Because my moment of clarity came when I was creating a piece of art inspired by Proverbs 31, I decided to put all of the things God says makes up a virtuous women on the page on the left.  I would encourage you to read Proverbs 31.  God puts these expectations in such a kind and loving way, how can I disappoint??

Now because I started out a little behind, I also have week two for you to see.  I had fun using a Tim Holtz mask on my journal page and then my spray inks.  It made for a quick and easy background.  This prompt forced us to think a bit about our strengths and weaknesses, which makes me realize although I have made some changes in my life to be more like what God wants me to be, I am forced to see that I still have a lot of work to do.  Here is week 2 prompt:

• The 6 F's and Balance in your life
• Faith, Family, Fun, Friends, Fitness and Finances
• Write about one that is going really well
• Write about one that is not going so well
• Think about the imbalance of the two and why you think its going the way it is.
• What do you want to do differently?
• What is your desire for the future?

I decided to write a little about all of them although I think the one I am the best at achieving is fitness and that is not saying much.  I work out 5 days a week but the imbalance comes in with food :(  Finance is probably my weakest area and as you will see in my next journal entry, probably next week, it is a goal to change that in the very near future.

For the art part of this prompt I was very led by the Spirit to create this girl.  A friend shared an inspiring verse with me a few days ago from Ephesians 1:17 or somewhere there very close.  It says that God gives us the power to overcome, the same power with which He raised Jesus from the dead!  WOW!!!  That gives a little more clarity to the verse, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."  Eternal life in Heaven is not the only gift we receive as followers of Christ Jesus.

A little about my girl, I seriously think she is my favorite that I have made so far.  The colors were outside my usual palette and I think that pushed me to try new things on this one.  So, I subscribe to the Peachy Keen monthly stamp and kit clubs and that is where the paper, green flower, little button and butterfly came from.  CUTE!!!  I got the Christy Tomlinson rub-ons in the mail today and of course I had to use them immediately.  For this girl I decided not to paint her face because when I got her head glued down I realized that just by luck (which I don't believe in, God does those things we call "lucky") the words jewel and diamonds are right on the face.  It reminded me that in the Bible God says we are more precious than jewels or diamonds!  I love it when that happens!

I hope you decide to come on this journaling journey with me.  I could use the support :)  You can just use the prompts as I give them to you or you can sign up for Christy's workshop and join in the messy art fun too in the Living Canvas Workshop.  If you decide to do that, be sure to tell her I sent you.

Have a blessed day,

Jana

A New Journey

Hello all!

Today I begin a new journey. I am taking an online course from Christy Tomlinson called Your Living Canvas. Here is the short description from her website:

We all have a story to tell... one that we live and paint and breath everyday... through our heartaches and trials, joys and celebrations, insecurities and moments of clarity.  What story are we telling now and what story do we have yet to create? At the end of the day, it's our living canvas that will tell our story.

In this six week course we will help you discover that through art, techniques,journaling and soul searching exercises... that will help you create your canvas by design not by default. 

I would be lying if I said I thought this was going to be all about making fun art.  Christy and her friend Art McCracken (fun name lol) are helping us do some soul searching to discover more about ourselves.  I'm on a path to learn more about who God wants me to be.  If you read my post a few months ago about the 6x6 canvas I created for the 100 Women, 100 Words exhibition you will remember it really got me to thinking about Proverbs 31 and whether or not I was striving to be the virtuous women God wants me to be.  Very soon after I finished that piece I got an email from Christy's blog about this workshop and it made perfect sense to take it to help me along this journey.

It's not a cheap workshop, $104 to be exact and with me wanting to get my car paid off I didn't feel good about spending that so I went to work crocheting some purses thinking I might be able to sell them and lo and behold, I have sold 5! Here is what a few of them looked like.

The class doesn't even start until May but we have a private Facebook group where we are doing journaling exercises and other challenges to prepare us for the workshop.  So in order to really get into the journaling, which I have tried for years but never really followed through, I created a fun cover for mine and began with a few pages before my first journaling prompt.

Here is the cover:

This is the first page I am not finished with, but I was looking at one of my favorite artists websites, Junelle Jacobson and she had done a mixed media piece similar to this an it really spoke to me so I wanted to sketch it, then I wanted to paint it.

Below is the background for my first journaling prompt.  Not sure if I am going to share my actual entries yet though.  The prompt went something like this...for any of you that would like to play along:

Write down one moment of clarity or accomplishment that you are proud of that you remember and write one trial or heartache that shapes you in some way.  How did these things change your day to day way of doing things? from the experiences, did you find a purpose or motivation to do better or be better?

I have always wanted to do an art journal so here I go!

So that is what I have been up to and will be working on for a while.  I promise I will sprinkle in a few paper projects and some Pinterest playtime, so keep checking back.

Blessings,

Jana